Free


I've spent some time alone recently. I was blessed to be able to safely travel to three different countries in that time. I needed the time with myself - for myself. The thing about the company of your solitude is you have no one to cloud your thoughts, judgments or emotions. Not being able to silence those voices can be uncomfortable for many, but its in that discomfort that you find stillness. It's in that stillness you're able to confront the chaos and many thoughts, and it's in that solitude you become better for yourself and for others.

I've learned a lot of lessons recently, not from current life experiences, but more so from past experiences. I've developed a new perspective and gone back to the roots of my being that I lost in the minutia of life. The universe has reminded me that I am love and unconditional love must begin with me. I've come to a place of forgiveness for those who have wronged me, and I've forgiven myself for my wrongdoings. Most importantly, I've developed a newfound sense of gratitude. It has much less to do with my material possessions, but, more to do with my life experiences - the love I've known, the opportunities I've had, and my internal growth and mental, physical and spiritual well-being. And because of this, I mustn't allow anything or anyone bringing negative energy into my life - and that this doesn't make me empty or callous, it makes me whole.

Over the course of the last 3 weeks, I've written, read, cried, prayed, meditated, screamed and released. I've come to accept that there are things I cannot change, and that I have a choice of whether I'm willing to surround myself with certain energies. These weeks have been a mirror held to my face, forcing me me address the pain. It's been the blessing  of the last three weeks that's allowed me to let go. In this moment, I can vehemently say that I hold not regret, I harbor no resentment and I carry no anger toward myself, nor anyone else. In this moment, I am grateful. In this moment, I am calm. In this moment, I am free.

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